Farewell to my 20s
I woke up
this morning
To a
bathroom full of balloons
The mirror
covered with words
The living
room dancing with streamers
I wandered
through my hurt
A salty tear
Rolled down
my cheek
I gasped in to
take
New breath
I paced, I paused
Full of
gratitude
Yet broken,
as well
I confess
My 20s are
behind me
They were
dark
And they
were light
They were
flawed
They were
full
They were
something
They are
gone
What’s not
gone
However
Are the
lessons
I’ve learned
The
takeaways
I kept
The hugs
That linger
on
I traveled
across
The country
Las Vegas,
LA, New York
I ventured
beyond
The borders
Canada,
Mexico, my heart
I worked
A number of
jobs
That’s
really too high
To count
I found
Myself in
hiding
I found
Myself out
loud
More than
all the jobs
And places
that I’ve seen
Rests a
sense of peacefulness
I rarely
ever glean
I was an
alcoholic
I was
divorced
I was a wife
I became an
aunt
You see
I missed
A lot of
life
What stays
Beyond this
notion
Of
Fear
Self-hatred
Regret
Is love
That lasts
forever
A love
I can’t
forget
What stays
Is not feelings
Or faces
What stays
Is
forgiveness
And grace
What stays
I don’t have
to hold onto
What stays
Is still coming
Into place
I’m here
Right now
With courage
To face
The great unknown
I’m here
Right now
I’m smiling
I cry
I break, I
rebound
My 20s were
not easy
I failed to
love myself
I failed
I sought
perfection
I succeeded
In what was
found
A love that
lasts forever
A love that
never fades
A love I
have now
For myself
A love that
others
Freely gave
I wouldn’t
be here
Without my
friends
My family
My exes
My cats
I wouldn’t
be here
Without my
god
Which words
Can hardly
Expound
I’m here
right now
I’m alive
somehow
I’m 30
I’m young
I’m grown
I’ll hold
onto this feeling
Where I’m ready
to release
What I’ve
known
My biggest
intention
Is bravery
To step
forward
When I
cannot see
The plans
the universe
Has for me
The divinity
in you
And in we
I’m not
defined by money
I’m not
defined by work
I’m not
defined by memories
My ups and
downs
Have worth
In the end
It’s just
the beginning
In the
beginning
It’s also
the end
The end of
the moments behind me
The
opportunity for rebirth
I made a
little list
Of silly
words I learned:
Corn maze
Marriage
Rehab
Divorce
No stones
unturned
Bridesmaid
Graduate
Daughter
Escapist
Settler
Bride
Friend
My own worst
enemy
Lost
confidence
Ego
Pride
This time on
earth
Is dark and
light
It’s both
It’s not
about me
My path as a
human
Surprises me
And with
that
I choose to
proceed
My 30s are
just a number
But this day
begins anew
I have
another chance today
To fight, to
seek my truth
This day is
given to all of us
We have
another go
This day is
all we have
Right now
Let’s choose
To love, to
be, to grow
4/24/2020
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